Thursday, January 04, 2007

The kid in me

2007 started. Another year passed by silently, have grown older by an year, childhood seems to be slipping by. I want to stick to my childhood, don't want to grow old, don't want to face the complications that age brings with itself. A friend of mine couriered me a few CD's I had asked for, and to my pleasant surprise I found a few Eclairs in the envelope. This triggered back my childhood memories. I was not keeping well emotionally since a few days so those were to lift me up. The Eclairs reminded me of a childhood experience. When I was a school going kid, every evening when my father used to come back from work, he used to ask me to find out a coin (of any denomination). I used to keep it on his palm and he used to read some magic mantras upon which that coin used to turn into an Eclair. I used to be ecstatic at the magic played by papa and used to wait anxiously everyday for him to play it again. And one day I grew up, I grew up to realise that it was no magic, just a plain haath-ki-safai.

That day I was feeling happy on having grown up and to realise that papa was fooling me all throughout, but now I don't feel happy about it any longer. I wish I could have been a naive not to realise it ever. Papa would bring me chocolates forever and I would eat them with the same excitement everyday.

But probably now my father loves it this way. He would want that I get chocolates for him, it's time for him to enjoy and me to bring joys for him. He can't be the giver always, I too need to understand my responsibilties and take command of my life.

And that's how I have started my new year with- to make myself capable of taking charge of things. However much we may hate, but we need to accept it. And yes if only we don't forget the little girl in us eagerly waiting for a chocolate magic, life will remain joyful as every little thing would be sweet enough to make us happy.

So welcome 2007 with an open mind and don't ever let the kid in you die.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

One sheyar in this context!

ye daulat bhe le lo, ye shauhrat bhe le lo, bhale cheen lo mujhse meri javani, magar mujhko lauta do bachpanka sawan, vo kagaz ki kashti, vo barish ka pani...

Niedhie said...

Well-placed Charchit :)

Anonymous said...

I used to love melody. Melody he chocolady. ' Melody khao khud khud jan jao'. Well jokes apart even in the my twenties i am living my childhood [:)]. Still i never missed those rains and papermade boats. Why should I? There is no fixed age for that. [:)] even today i love to make paperboats.

Niedhie said...

Anon: Oh good you reminded me of the paperboats... And I used to make aeroplanes also!!! And play with dolls with my younger brother, he used to love playing it more than me :)

How much I miss all that!!!

Anonymous said...

first of all sorry for writing as anonymous. i m pretty new to this blogging thing, and was all at sea regarding loggin in. I also used to made aeroplane. It was a great pleasure to see ur selfmade plane flying better than others. It felt like you have just achieved a great feet. Still love to make planes though all my competetors have stopped playing long back or may be i left them far behind. Did hav a doll also that used to close it's eyes when placed in a sleeping position. Still have it, dont play with it anymore though. Sometimes it become har to accept that i hav grown up which i surely did. May be once a child always a child.[:-)]

Anonymous said...

the magic trick days is one of my favorate childhood memory. i still remember days when dad use to forget to keep toffies in his pocket (for the trick).

Rupkamal said...

hi

Rupkamal said...

hi

Rupkamal said...

Anonymous who wrote melody and paper boat was me. Till yesterday it was showing my name, but today it is showing as anon. It is really frustrating. Now these msgs are having my name now probably they will also become anon after a few days. :(

Rupkamal said...

well here is my blog even if i become i anon it will remain there
http://prorerties-of-life.blogspot.com/